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That's fascinating but also a bit frightening! I always tell people this story, but when my mum died, my formerly straight hair grew out curly, and I got better looking. I would love to know how to channel some archetypal energy though - will look out for your next post! Oh and I LOVE that first painting of the eyes - so confronting.

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Thank you.

Straight hair going curly? I wonder what happened. That is fascinating.

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I have some theories, but they're all a bit woo woo 🤣

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The more I think about it, the more I think woo woo has to be real.

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Yeah I mean, agreed. If woo answers the question then I don't see the need to "debunk" it.

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Oct 23Liked by Karina Pawlak

As an actor, I have experienced these energy shifts quite often. I think it is a sort of Astral travel, a morphing and melding of energies. I did a production of Big River a few years ago, the musical adaptation of Huckleberry Finn. Practically all of the dialogue was taken directly from the novel and the musical score written by Roger Miller. We rehearsed and did the show during the winter months in Southern California. Not bitter cold, but definitely not summer. Most of the action of the play occurs along the Mississippi during the summer months. I began to notice as we approached opening night, as I immersed deeper and deeper into character, the n'er do well con man, The Duke, my empathy for him and the others was so real.Twain's precise understanding of regional dialect added much to the understanding of the people, the times, the history, the feeling of what it was like to live along Big River in the late 19th century. It was a large cast with varying levels of skill, yet they all seemed to experience the physiologic shift in appearance. So subtle, so profound. We all vicariously felt Jim's heartbreak, Huck's transformation, the sad racism of the "flatheads" . The smells, the heat, the understanding to my core, my very sinew. It was great theatre and a wonderful way to truly experience American History.

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That is fascinating. It seems like you all got on the same wavelength and came to understand something from being on that frequency. I bet it was captivating for the audience.

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Oct 23·edited Oct 23Liked by Karina Pawlak

This is a fascinating piece. It, brings into sharp relief how our personalities and the way we move in the work can be performative, artifice even--I'm autistic, so, say, when I go to the store I have to armor up and become a different person to tolerate all the stimulation--almost becoming invisible. I think of performers like Marilyn Manson, Bowie, et al who transform themselves into a character before hitting the stage. I love your work too. I own three snakes and am partial that one with the rattlesnake. Living in Arizona, I see them quite often on my morning walks.

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This is so interesting!

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I'm a Veteran and throughout my time overseas and meeting various walks of life i believe there is a ton of resonance to this very thing. I developed what some today call, D.I.D. (Dissociation Identity Disorder). Not a real medical condition but in hindsight a way to describe a considerably deep flaw. I've struggled to embrace it and turn it into something efficient. Fortunately, after years of trial and error I feel as if I have consolidated these various peices of me into a tool. This read has definitely made me aware of just how much more real this thing is as I usually like to keep one toe in reality. Cause if we don't, we risk losing ourselves to insanity.

This was a very insightful read, I look forward to the next 😁🤙🏽

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This sounds very familiar to me. It reminds me of the practice of reality transurfing. It's like you use the imagination to get to a certain point in the future but it's drawn or cast by a mindset.

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